sattelite update!

we have to run the generator and internet all night for a systems update so we straight up brewt ourselves a pot of coffee and dove into the luxury that is internet access. it's ten thirty, man; that's hardcore for the jungle.
it's weird for me to keep blogging because i am still in the same place and things are pretty much routine. yet exciting, yet exciting... let's see. i have moved to a lovely loft above the library in the front house of the farm. i like it becuase the sea is louder and wind always blows through. we are in the middle of rainy season, which means it pours for four days, is sunny for a few days, back and forth. the sea is pretty strong sometimes so boats are questionable. i tried surfing the other day and got schooled by some waves. when we get storms, i sort of feel like i am in jurassic park. i want it to really rain so we can't get off the farm and see what it's like to survive off the land. mosquitos are horrible all day, especially in morning yoga. my legs and arms and back look like hell. but so does everybody elses'. except padi. padi says, "you know why dey don't bite me? huh? because i am da childd of gooodd. dey know. dey know day can't bite me."
kitchen is coming along. i am pretty much accustomed to running things in there. it's so so much fun to prep food and cook all day. especially harvesting it from our farm first. it's given me another level of respect for food. we are definately lacking in the knife department and i dream sometimes of my ten-incher and how it would just love to wreck some yucca root or culantro. i think i am basically staff because they put me on the website.
we had a bonfire last night. everybody ate ganja cake, even this nice lady theresa, staying as a guest from new york. we threw dried patchoulli leaves into the fire. after that, a few of us got into the water under the almost full moon, even theresa, who swam in her underwear. i gave lots of thanks for how different and amazing these people are. i looked at the sky a lot and had that overwhelming feeling one gets when they become aware of the alignment that is happening. i am reading a yogi's lectures on the mind. they are compelling to no end. i find myself spiraling into seven-page writing sessions from just one of his paragraphs. i find myself doubting less, breathing deeper, laughing more, speaking truth, gaining peace, exploiting illusions, reconsidering love, just trying to see clearly. trying to give less resistance to what already is and more mindfulness in what i do. i love that i am where i am, but i definately see this as a temporary place.
my friend megan and gabriel (the nine year old kid who lives here) did an experiment with jars of cooked brown rice. they were sealed for one month, each respectively labeled I LOVE YOU & I HATE YOU. every day a few people said those words to each jar and concentrated on the energy of those statements. we opened them the other night over dinner and the results blew my mind. i think they actually changed my life. i love it. i love energy and affection.
i want to read 'mindful loving'
i want deb to come make movies about this place.
i want jacq to get here so we can drink ylang-ylang infused ice waters and go surfing and paint murals and machete some cocos and get lost in the 70-year-old spooky cacao forest at the back of the property. i just want to play for the rest of my life and simotaneously surf the net!